What was my motive ???

Hey peeps ….. how are you all doing … it has sure been a “minute”…. hasn’t it πŸ˜œπŸ˜‹πŸ˜˜…. long time no “write” or should I say long time no “read” ….lollll πŸ˜‚πŸ˜

I have recently been thinking about why I am so in love with God… a God that I can’t see but have placed everything about me in his hands…… As I look back and reminisce on my motive in getting to know God, I can only but lol…. (chia I was such a numpty lolll) However,  I am so grateful I am now in a different stage with my King compared to how it all started.

Ok…….let me fill you in on some gossip πŸΈβ˜•οΈπŸ˜

My SERIOUS relationship with my King started in 2006/07. I gave my life to christ because I needed healing… I was emotionally broken and I needed some type of fix to heal my broken heart….. I had been in a relationship where I was taken advantage of “emotionally.”…….”emotional abuse” some may call it but I was so naive, i blamed myself for so many things and managed to convince myself I was the problem. At the time I was young, insecure, didn’t know God, and made this one person my “god”…….even after giving my life to christ fast forward a few years on, I still had some back sliding stunts here and there….lol …(.abeg don’t judge me πŸ˜‹ I ain’t perfect)… but God was always there to take my needy self back with open arms.. πŸ€—πŸ˜œπŸ˜œ

My initial motivation to know Christ was driven by NEED…. For years I was locked in this mind field of …. I need God to do this and that for me…. and as God is so gracious he provided every and anything I needed. This further fuelled my focus as I moved from one need to the next …… it got to a point where I would communicate with God only when I wanted to petition him…. (ha!!!! See my life ….lol) 

The amazing thing with God, is that he helps you grow by allowing you go through certain things in life …. for me I know I am not where I want to be but I am very thankful to My KING for allowing me to go through certain things in life because it has/ is helping to shape me into the woman he has called me to be. Plus it has slapped my needy self back in check!!….lolll ( as in!!! God can be harsh sometimes … hhehe) 

To cut the long story short my focus is no longer “I need” but rather “love”…… love so deep that all I want to do is to spend every minute of my day communicating with my king…in reality that doesn’t always happen…… I.e the everyday … every minute communication thing….. however God see my heart 😊

I am motivated by love and not by requirement and because my focus is my relationship with God and not by what I need from him, this sets the tone to every other relationship in my life. 

So now I know when something isn’t working right in my life… I know I need to sort out my love relationship with my king because when I do he takes care of everything else 😍

Ok peeps now it is back to you …..            As we are now buddies 😜 and in the spirit of sharing πŸ˜¬πŸ˜‰…..tell me …. what motivates you in life?

 more rant to come xoxoxo😘

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